I was listening to a podcast the other day (Typology podcast; Ian Cron interviews a variety of folks that come from different types on the Enneagram) with Sarah Thebarge on making decisions out of love not fear. I’m not sure why, but it stopped me in my tracks and I’ve been running several of the things through my head on repeat.
“BEING BRAVE IS WHEN YOU DON’T FEEL AFRAID SO YOU TAKE RISKS OR DO DANGEROUS THINGS. BEING COURAGEOUS IS WHEN YOU FEEL ALL THE FEAR BUT YOU CHOOSE TO DO IT ANYWAY BECAUSE THERE IS SOMETHING MORE IMPORTANT AT STAKE.”
— SARAH THEBARGE
How many times do we use those words, being brave and courageous, interchangeably? I sat in the car thinking, “What am I afraid of lately?” I don’t know if I’ve even discovered the answer yet, but I’m still mulling it over. What am I afraid of that I should walk into and face anyway?
Thebarge shares many personal anecdotes from her life of meeting someone serendipitously and then the ripple effect through decisions made afterwards. I wanna live that presently. I wanna live in a way that each day I consider, what does today have for me? I think sometimes the planner in me gets in the way of the randomness that the Lord and the day are trying to throw at me.
I’m not gonna pretend to be brave. I’m gonna try to live with courage in the face of those fears. The question I’m trying to ask myself with choices,
Is this a decision based on fear or a decision based on love?